All my life is yours

I can feel the tears reaching my eyes and constricting my throat. I can't breathe as I try to hold back the tears to not give them room to unfold. And do you know why I feel this? Why do I feel vulnerable and fragile? 'Cause you're the one holding me together. 'Cause it's you that let me breathe. 'Cause it's you that keeps me alive. 'Cause you're the one that makes me whole. 'Cause you're the one holding me up. If you're not, I'm dead and crumble to dust. That's why I'm please you... ...never leave me! Because if you're not with me, I can't be alive anymore... Post Script: I hope you know how much you mean to me and how important you are... Written by Miss Sunshine 

You had trouble breathing. Your trust has been abused once again. The hope of true love is becoming less and less. The thought of your ex makes you question why you let him go that easily. You needed someone: ... who understands you. ... who knows how it feels to be cheated on. ... who knows the pain you are feeling in your whole body right now. ... who has experienced everything you are experiencing right now. ... who can give you the courage thst you wont  stumble again. ... But you missed an important point... IT WAS YOU that did all this to him. And now you have the audacity to go to him to cry your heart out, to seek protection and understanding from him? Do you mean it fucking serious? Do you? Are you not ashamed?