I don't think I will see the end of the year...💔

We will stop your treatment because the desired effect that we had hoped for has not materialized. Shortness of breath will not be the reason for her death. If we stop the artificial feeding now, first the kidney will fail and will not be able to filter out the toxins in your body...you will fall asleep peacefully.

You will die! We accompany them until death. You are not alone. There will also be life after death! Nobody knows what awaits them there. All I can tell you is that your kids are in good hands and they will get through anything. You prepared her well for life. You can be proud of yourself.

Start planning your funeral! Where do you want to be buried? How will the funeral go? What are their wishes? A particular restaurant where you liked to eat?

How long do you think you have to live? Any inner feeling?

..."I don't think I will see the end of the year!"


How do you feel when you read all this? It makes you sad, thoughtful and scared, right? Ain't no good feeling right? Unfortunately, this happens to many people every day.

You feel powerless, stunned, everything is passing you by like in a movie. You want to close your eyes to reality and hope that the nightmare will end as soon as you open your eyes again. But unfortunately that's not the case...

All of this weighs tons on your shoulder. You feel so much and you are so empty inside. Everyone wants to help you, but nobody can. 'Cause you know you gotta let go soon A very frightening feeling that cannot be classified. I don't wish this experience on anyone.

Of course, sooner or later each of us has to go. Everyone will die. But we suppress that every day and hope that it won't hit us. Because death is scary and a topic that you avoid because it makes you sad and thoughtful.

That's why I can only recommend you enjoy the time with your loved ones, appreciate the time together and don't argue. Because in the end, what's left should it be the argument or shouldn't the beautiful moments outweigh it?


Written by Miss Sunshine 

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  1. GauravJune 11, 2022 at 11:33 PM

    You wrote everything we are feeling. It's so beautiful how you craft all those feelings on words that touches our soul.. You're amazing. Truely! And it's another masterpiece 👏🏻

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    1. Mrs. KumarJune 11, 2022 at 11:36 PM

      That means a lot thank you so much that you can feel through my words what i felt and try to explain ❤️

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