Speechless...

                                    ... no words to say!


There are moments in life when you can't find the right words or you're so overwhelmed by the situation that you don't have the words.


I had this feeling for the last few months of my life. So much good has happened, but where there is good, there is always something “bad” lurking. However, the “negative” in life also has something good in it. 


It just depends on what you do with it. Every low makes you stronger and you learn to appreciate the good things in your life much more. 


Because of everything that has happened recently, all the hurdles that I had to overcome and still have to overcome, I have found more to myself. I feel much closer to mine than ever before.


But this step to be closer to myself, to love myself more again and to not be so strict with myself, required a lot of courage and strength. 


I left my homeland, my familiar surroundings and all my loved ones behind and built a new life in a foreign country.


That doesn't mean that I have turned my back on everything and everyone. I just created a little distance to finally give myself a chance to live the life I deserve. With the man I love more than anything. 


But as I said, everything good also has its dark side. People I love have misunderstood my intention behind my decision and are now angry with me and hardly say a word to me...


This again showed me that people who really care about me won't turn their back on me as soon as they don't like my decision.


That's why I'm grateful for every person who accompanies me on my new path in life, from near and far. For all the love, encouragement and for all the help.


At this moment I have the feeling: "I have arrived!". "This is my home!". " Thats the place where i belong!".


And I have my husband to thank for that. He is the support that encourages me day by day. He gives me the love that I no longer believed existed...


In times like these, sometimes I'm just

speechless...


Written by Alina 💕

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