I will never be enough!

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It's nice to know you're loved unconditionally. But it also hurts to know that you never did!

I know that until your death, I could never do anything right for you, and that hurts. Yet I did everything to earn your love and approval but it was never enough for you...

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The past catches you when you least expect it. Suddenly, it's back, and you can't escape it...

Be it just a word, a gesture, or something similar that makes you feel like a small, stupid, insignificant child who can never live up to the expectations of others. No matter how hard you try.

To this day, a quiet voice in my head haunts me, constantly saying, "You're not good enough!" Even though I try so hard to please everyone and everything.

I feel like I'm giving up on myself and my needs, but they always say I'm selfish and only think about myself. But when was the last time I thought about myself? Even so far away from everything, my thoughts only revolve around you...

Trying to be perfect, functioning like an unfeeling robot, being the model daughter, sister, or niece— 

I was never anything close to that in their eyes. I was a failure...

According to them, I was too fat, selfish, and self-absorbed—a complete disappointment till today. 

Because I am who I am and I "dared" to follow my own path. I know there will always be critics and jealousy and that's why I try keep my circle small. But what could you do when its in your own family?

You can try as hard as you want to be yourself. But when the past catches up with you for some reason, I feel like that little insignificant girl from the past...


Written by Mrs.K




P.S. Thank you to my husband for making me believe that i am worth of being loved. For making me feel i am enough and perfect the way i am. You came into my life like a miracle. I love you endlessly ❤️ 

Comments

  1. AnonymousMay 28, 2025 at 10:58 AM

    Each word describing the Pain 💔

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  2. AnonymousMarch 28, 2026 at 3:17 PM

    Remember you're never a failure just because you choose YOU. So proud of you for being yourself 🤍

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    1. Mrs. KumarMarch 31, 2026 at 4:29 PM

      Yes that is true. Thank you so much for the words. 🤍

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